(there are many sides of the blonde who is taking a deep breath. from incorrigible brat, to charismatic authority that could shook one to their core - and that's the one he is going to employ, his voice firm and thundering as he attempts to break kazutora from his loop.)
Tora. Look at me.
(and here he goes.)
It'd be a lie to say what you've done doesn't bother me, and I ain't no liar. You took my brother, aided in the death of my first love, and you kept my beloved friend from me.
(three. kazutora's own self counts in the body count he's left behind.)
If I don't forgive you, and if you don't forgive yourself, all that will be for nothing. It's a process, and I don't think it'll be easy for any of us, but can you give me my friend back, Kazutora?
[Kazutora would look up slowly, tear stained, eyes wide, pupils pinpricks. Mikey's face was there. Mikey was there. His voice was hard, but his words were soft. He had that natural authority Kazutora couldn't even dream of having.
Draken had said something similar. That he still thought of Kazutora as a friend, and it had pissed him off. Because he still /wanted/ that, but he couldn't forgive himself. And if he couldn't forgive himself, how could he expect anybody else to forgive him? How could he expect anyone else to want him, when all he wanted to do was just die?
But Baji had changed that. By taking the blame for his own death, by forgiving Kazutora no matter what.. And Mikey, with his declaration that Kazutora was always a part of Toman, had changed that.
But he still couldn't understand it. What could he do to make up for what he'd done? How could he ever repay his debt?]
I-- want to, Mikey, but how-- how could that ever be enough...?
(while the words come out strict, perhaps crueler in message, it's soft in tone as he reaches to rid kazutora's face of his tears.
this isn't the same boy he nearly killed, or would have killed, if baji hadn't fucked that all up. this is someone who needs him, as per protocol, and he won't turn his back. not when he sees there's will.)
I say that, for now, it's enough. You're crying, Kazutora, not attempting to strangle me. Isn't that something? Live with us, and be free from this. Let me save you.
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Date: 2022-12-28 05:37 am (UTC)Tora. Look at me.
(and here he goes.)
It'd be a lie to say what you've done doesn't bother me, and I ain't no liar. You took my brother, aided in the death of my first love, and you kept my beloved friend from me.
(three. kazutora's own self counts in the body count he's left behind.)
If I don't forgive you, and if you don't forgive yourself, all that will be for nothing. It's a process, and I don't think it'll be easy for any of us, but can you give me my friend back, Kazutora?
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Date: 2023-01-04 06:11 pm (UTC)Draken had said something similar. That he still thought of Kazutora as a friend, and it had pissed him off. Because he still /wanted/ that, but he couldn't forgive himself. And if he couldn't forgive himself, how could he expect anybody else to forgive him? How could he expect anyone else to want him, when all he wanted to do was just die?
But Baji had changed that. By taking the blame for his own death, by forgiving Kazutora no matter what.. And Mikey, with his declaration that Kazutora was always a part of Toman, had changed that.
But he still couldn't understand it. What could he do to make up for what he'd done? How could he ever repay his debt?]
I-- want to, Mikey, but how-- how could that ever be enough...?
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Date: 2023-01-08 05:26 pm (UTC)(while the words come out strict, perhaps crueler in message, it's soft in tone as he reaches to rid kazutora's face of his tears.
this isn't the same boy he nearly killed, or would have killed, if baji hadn't fucked that all up. this is someone who needs him, as per protocol, and he won't turn his back. not when he sees there's will.)
I say that, for now, it's enough. You're crying, Kazutora, not attempting to strangle me. Isn't that something? Live with us, and be free from this. Let me save you.
(ok but who's saving mikey)