[Kazutora would look up slowly, tear stained, eyes wide, pupils pinpricks. Mikey's face was there. Mikey was there. His voice was hard, but his words were soft. He had that natural authority Kazutora couldn't even dream of having.
Draken had said something similar. That he still thought of Kazutora as a friend, and it had pissed him off. Because he still /wanted/ that, but he couldn't forgive himself. And if he couldn't forgive himself, how could he expect anybody else to forgive him? How could he expect anyone else to want him, when all he wanted to do was just die?
But Baji had changed that. By taking the blame for his own death, by forgiving Kazutora no matter what.. And Mikey, with his declaration that Kazutora was always a part of Toman, had changed that.
But he still couldn't understand it. What could he do to make up for what he'd done? How could he ever repay his debt?]
I-- want to, Mikey, but how-- how could that ever be enough...?
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Date: 2023-01-04 06:11 pm (UTC)Draken had said something similar. That he still thought of Kazutora as a friend, and it had pissed him off. Because he still /wanted/ that, but he couldn't forgive himself. And if he couldn't forgive himself, how could he expect anybody else to forgive him? How could he expect anyone else to want him, when all he wanted to do was just die?
But Baji had changed that. By taking the blame for his own death, by forgiving Kazutora no matter what.. And Mikey, with his declaration that Kazutora was always a part of Toman, had changed that.
But he still couldn't understand it. What could he do to make up for what he'd done? How could he ever repay his debt?]
I-- want to, Mikey, but how-- how could that ever be enough...?